...subject to change XD

Goodness gracious. After neglecting my LJ for several weeks, I can finally come back to it after my law test....

A short description of what happened is that it went quite shittily. I'm quite drained at the moment. I mean, I supposed I was quite "oh no.... T________T" after the test first ended, but now I'm just tired and glad that it's behind me. But I am aware of the fact that I probably need to do a heck of a lot more study from now on, which is.... not appealing but I suppose it must be done. Quite frankly, I just hope that I manage to pass this test so that I can attempt to console myself by saying that at least I did pass and that I can redeem myself in the final exam. However, that would be much harder to do if I really badly failed... and.... yeah.... ><

I suppose at least I'm not down with really violent food poisoning like poor Bor at the moment. I hope he gets better soon. =(

Ugh. Not looking forward to Asian foam. Nor the rest of the year, for that matter.

Depressed, Nix.

Do this and repost it with the title:
i've done ___ of these 132 stupid things

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 1

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
( ) Been Dumped
( ) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 2

Level 4
( ) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 4

Level 5
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 6

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 8

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 11

Level 8
( ) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding (offroading)
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 14

Level 9
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
( ) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
( ) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 15

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 16

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 18

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 21

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 22

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
( ) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 24

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 28

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
( ) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 32

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made a Prank Phone Call
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 33

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 36

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
( ) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 37

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 38

Level 22
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 40

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 43

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been in a tree house.
( ) Been scared to watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 44

Level 25
( ) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 44

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 46

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video
( ) Caught A Butterfly
( ) Laughed So Hard You Cried
( ) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 46

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
( ) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
( ) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 47

Level 29
( ) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 49

Level 31
( ) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
( ) Bitten Someone
( ) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 50

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

SO FAR: 50

I've done 50 of these 132 stupid things.

Let's try to say this all in a few words as I have no time for long, elaborated entries.

I hate my English tutorial. 'Daisy' was right in saying that 'Mimi' was the most annoying girl in her year at college. She annoys the heck out of me. Everyone else in the class are just either unbelievably ass-sucking and eager-to-please or uptight and pompous or both. Honestly speaking, so many of the uni students in my classes seem to be like so. I hope my first impressions were wrong.

Either way, I really have to change my English tutorial.

I am two readings behind in Law.

Half a reading behind in Phil.

Only got home at 8.15pm today due to a movie screening for English in which we watched Dekalog and Wallace and Gromit. The former of which was depressing as hell and made me want to kill myself. (Jk lol. But it was really depressing.)

I have to read Hadji Murat and Lolita by the end of next week at least.

I have to finish Maus I soon. Even though I should have finished it at the beginning of the week.

I have no idea what the hell I'm doing for Law despite doing my best to study. Okay, so not my ultimate best. But I'm getting there.

...I can't get my head around Philosophy or Law.

I have no idea what I'm doing, period. Or rather, I know what I'm doing but it doesn't seem to be quite enough and it's just not very satisfying for me somehow.

I have to stay until 6pm on Thursdays, one of the days in which I get off early for ONCE because I was too late in enrolling for my Law tutorial and so I have no choice.

I have to read all the stuff they put on Cecil. There must be at least 50 files I haven't opened by now, or more.

I have to get my head around the Philosophy essay.

Good heavens. I have to get my head together, period.

-Nix.

Oh, this is hard ><. Let's just type out all the ones I remember XDD

When asked what I was good at...
"You're good at making me laugh, okay?"
(In a kindly manner lol.)

When asked what kind of drink I would be if I were one...
"A traffic light." XD

When talking to a person who was NEVER known to giving out compliments...
"I actually think you write quite well."

And just out of the blue...
"You're the best, you know that?"
♥

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Okay. Anyway. Today went quite well I thought. Got up around 10.30, and by now have already proceeded to clear out my wardrobe of junk clothing that I never wear/bought when I was 14, as well as tidying my room and managing to vacumn it for the first time in forever. So am feeling quite pleased with self, and may also do some study during the afternoon... which I am not really happy about. But then again, I would feel worse if I didn't do it, which serves as a reason to do so.

Hm. Yesterday's birthday plans with Miss Fluke did not go as well as I had expected. I don't know if it's just my problem, but I didn't enjoy it as much as I thought I would.... and actually, I couldn't really tell if Miss Fluke was having fun either. Maybe I'm just bummed that she didn't seem very appreciative and was kind of offhand in the way she treated us, but mm. The only time that I really felt happy yesterday was when we brought out the cake near and were singing happy birthday to her - her face lit up then and I could tell that she was really happy which made me happy and made me feel like the day wasn't wasted....

Sigh.

Anyhow. Ugh. I went to another drama production meeting with the church guys yesterday morning, and I am starting to feel skeptical about this whole thing. There are only four of us right now, and we're all equally important in writing the script - there's also a deadline, I think, so if any one person opts out we'll be pretty much screwed - however, they are expecting us to hold a meeting twice a week for two hours each, at least.

In all honesty, you all know how I have a problem with commitment. And what with uni having just started and the pressure already mounting on all of us, I have no idea what I'm supposed to do if I want to have a life, do my best in school AND write the bloody script according to the timeframe we have now. Hell, it's already hard enough for me to figure out where uni ends and my life begins even when I don't have to take into account the drama project.... and yet if I pull out, a) I can really see them struggling more without me, b) they will hate me, and c) ...it's just not the right thing to do.

I have no idea what to do.

So as a whole, life is not that gay at the moment but there are still some things that I need to sort out.

...okay, a number of things.

Ugh. GG. >____>

Nix

Things are slowly looking up. I had reached a very low point last night when I was so overwhelmed by uni that I was just like fdklsjfd;slfkds and couldn't do a thing at all.... but after praying about it and reading a few pages of this book my church friends got me for my baptism two years before I feel alot better. And it does seem that uni is becoming less daunting. I just hope it starts feeling like home after a short while. It's almost like being Year 1 in primary all over again....

Anyway. Surprisingly enough, Law is one of my favourite lectures at the moment, followed by Philosophy. I'm still completely lost as to how on EARTH we're supposed to write essays on the two subjects, but nevertheless I will simply have to try my best. On the other hand, my English lecturer seems to be a nonsensical rambler, whereas my Japanese tutorials are quite frankly boring. I don't know. The people in my class just seem so - well, sensible that it's unsettling. I've realized that in uni, there doesn't really seem to be anybody who doesn't fit in or sticks out within the student body (or at least according to how much I have seen so far) - unlike, say, Hardy or Alan C or Alan Peng who were quite different people, I thought, but very interesting to have in the same vicinity. I really miss last year's Jap class where it was so much more interactive and fun. This year's Jap tutorial seems, so far, to just be work.... and work.... and work.... for heaven's sake! Give us some new interesting personalities to meet!

So right now I'm just pretty dead.

Ugh. I can pretty much tell that I'm not getting into second year Law or even second sem Law considering the knowledge I currently have. If I really want to continue with this I'm going to have to do a heck of a lot more extra study to catch up to those people who know what they're talking about when in discussion about the Civil Rights Movement or, I don't know, black rights.

Good heavens.

Haiz. This year is going to be a really tough year. But maybe it's a good thing. Keeps my mind occupied with useful things rather than.... tbh, even if anyone 'good' comes along I'm not even entirely sure that I will pursue a relationship with them. After all, I don't see myself having alot of time as it is, and.... well, 學業wai先啦. There will always be time for someone in the future, and perhaps right now is the time to start establishing my 'independence' (by getting the degree I want so that jobsearching in the future will be easier) - I need to be sure that I can look after myself before I get distracted by other things.

LOL. That sounded so.... pompous. Goodness. I can almost see myself becoming an old spinster with that kind of attitude. It feels good to say that though.

Hm.

Nix

Surprisingly enough I am more tired right now than I was after an 11 hr-long day yesterday. Anyhow. I'll give a short summary of what happened today. XD

I managed to take the bus by myself both there and back which is a very good achievement in my opinion. Today was alot more enjoyable than yesterday, since I actually know my way around and don't have to worry too much about getting lost and etc.... also, I only had one lecture with no breaks in which to worry about how to occupy myself, which was also very good. Alice, Ada AND Kelly turned out to be in my Jap lecture, and I also met this LJ friend of Angela's quite by accident which I found interesting. Aside from that (and my joining the Kiwi Asian Club) nothing much else happened. I plan to also join a dance club (salsa or hip-hop, perhaps?), although maybe I'll give up on joining the HK Society since a) I've already joined a culture club, and b) ....I'm more Kiwi Asian anyway XD.

Ugh. Today was a nice day I thought, but I'm really not looking forward to another 11 hr day tomorrow. And I don't know what to do about my English texts or any of my course materials (apart from Japanese which is pretty straightforward), not to mention the fact that I'm beginning to want a locker but have not found anybody to share one with yet. =/

Mm. I'll quit thinking about that for the meantime and just deal with what I can I suppose. XD

-Nix

Dear All,

Am quite tired and cannot really be bothered making a proper LJ entry, so will just ramble for a short while.

First day at uni was.... 3/10. Maybe that is a really low score but I'm not really enjoying it right now. It almost feels like a first day at primary all over again, completely unfamiliar and new.... and although there had been maybe an initial OHOHOHTHISISEXCITING when I first got to campus, it quickly melted away and was replaced by.... I dunno. Not exactly disdain, but perhaps disappointment? Nevertheless, I'm determined to be hopeful and will believe that uni will eventually get better as I get to know more people through the tutorials and become more used to this new stage of life. I shalt not give up! Or not yet anyway. This is only the beginning. XD

....I was just wondering though, will I have to buy all the books I need to read for English.... and if I need to have a head start on that like, right now....

Love,
Tired Nix

PS. It is at this point in time that I am particularly grateful for my family. Lol. Despite having been very irked at them for quite some time now, Mum, Dad & Q have been godsends today and I feel much better after having ranted to them about uni during dinner XDD.

INSTRUCTIONS
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
No Cheating.


HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
The First Kiss - The Veronicas

WHAT'S YOUR OUTLOOK ON LIFE?
Rehab - Rihanna

WHAT DOES YOUR FAMILY THINK OF YOU?
So Here We Are - Bloc Party

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Energy - Keri Hilson

WHAT DO STRANGERS THINK OF YOU?
Everywhere - Yellowcard

WHAT DO YOUR EXES THINK OF YOU?
Coming For You - JoJo (what exes???)

HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
East to West - Casting Crowns

HOW WILL YOUR LOVE LIFE BE IN THE FUTURE?
Make You Mine - Vanessa Hudgens

WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Everything - Lifehouse

WILL YOU HAVE KIDS?
That's Not My Name - The Ting Tings (???)

ARE YOU GOOD AT SCHOOL?
Touch My Body - Mariah Carey

WILL YOU BE SUCCESSFUL IN LIFE?
Rescue Me - Mumsdollar (zomg no lollll)

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY?
I Dare You To Move - Switchfoot

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Salvation Is Here - Hillsong

THE SOUNDTRACK OF YOUR LIFE:
Stolen - Dashboard Confessional

YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIEND ARE:
Remember The Name - Fort Minor (ahahaha XDDDD)

HAPPY TIMES:
Vienna - The Fray (wtf that is not a happy song.)

SAD TIMES:
City Of Devils - Yellowcard

EVERY DAY:
First Love - Utada Hikaru

FOR TOMORROW:
Nobody Wins - The Veronicas

FOR YOU:
All I Want - Staind

WHAT DOES NEXT YEAR HAVE IN STORE FOR ME?
Three Flights Up - Yellowcard

WHAT DO I SAY WHEN LIFE GETS TOO HARD?
Untitled - Simple Plan

WHAT DO I THINK WHEN I GET UP IN THE MORNING?
In The End - Linkin Park (haiz.)

WHAT SONG WILL I DANCE TO AT MY WEDDING?
Heart - Otsuka Ai

WHAT DO YOU WANT AS A CAREER?
Nobody's Listening - Linkin Park

YOUR FAVOURITE SAYING?
Let It Rock - Kevin Rudolf/Lil Wayne (lol!)

FAVOURITE PLACE?
Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others... - Underoath

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
From The Inside Out - Hillsong

DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Stand Up (To Cancer) - Various Artists (...)

WHAT DO I LIKE DOING MOST?
Devotion - Hillsong

SONG THAT DESCRIBES MY SCHOOL PRINCIPAL:
Breaking Free - HSM (?!)

WHAT IS MY STATE OF MIND AT THE MOMENT?
The Scientist - Coldplay

HOW WILL I DIE?
When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne


-


I cbs posting this on FB because it's not all that amusing lolz. They don't make sense XD

Nix.

I have never been so bored in my entire lifeeee.

Zomggggg.

Angela come homeeeee.

Jo take me to Vanuatuuuu.

HK take me backkkkk.

Life just endddd nowwwww pleaseeee.

><

-Nix

-dies-


What Self Thinks Will Be Doing For 2009

Semester One

Eng 111 - Literature from Sonnets to Comics
Jap 231 - Intermediate Japanese 1
Phil 102 - Introduction to Ethics
Law 121G - Law & Society

Semester 2

Eng 121 - Reading/Writing/Text
Socio 100 - Introduction to Sociology
Jap 232 - Intermediate Japanese 2
Law 131 - Legal Method



Dot. Dot. Dot.

-Nix

Dear All,

Why?

You know what I can't believe? That I've been looking forward to uni for so long - the whole starting over process, going somewhere new and leaving things behind - when now that it's drawing nearer, I'm beginning to get scared out of my wits. I'm just so scared. I have no idea if I'm making the right or wrong decision - and I said once that there was probably no right or wrong decision, but what I meant was.... what if the decisions I make are so wrong that they leave me stuck? Is that even possible in first year Law&Arts?

I hate myself. Not literally of course, but now that I've chosen Law&Arts I'm like wtf...? Whatever happened to what I'd told myself earlier about following my dreams? Now I'm probably going to be stuck in a year of true educational hell doing something I don't even give a shit about. Omg. How could I have been so.... stupid?

I'm scared of a multitude of things actually.

Firstly, I'm scared that I made a wrong decision with the degree.

I'm scared of proceeding with it and turning into one of those black&white-thinking Law students with the matching shoes like Daphne told me about. I'm scared of losing myself. I've heard from alot of people that law school killed their creativity. Hell, I write. I want to take photographs. What if that should happen?

And of what will happen if I don't proceed with it. What if my future prospects are bleak with just an Arts degree, as most people say? I don't want to survive on bread and cheese for the rest of my life. And what if the Arts degree is the one that's wrong for me?

In short, I'm afraid of the future.

Whatever happened to not being scared? I told myself...

Secondly, I'm afraid of being alone. Uni is such a big place, and.... considering I know no one in any of my lectures. And uni will be hard to stomach without friends. Especially if we're spending the whole freaking day at campus.

Thirdly, I'm also scared of not being able to move on from.... you know. Him. I've been talking about it for months and I haven't been able to do it yet. I know I said I was making progress but that was really just a lie. I believed it before because I made myself, and because I knew I needed to steel myself against these absurd feelings but.... I....

I'm afraid that I won't be able to move on. I'm afraid that I will keep clinging onto him because of my loneliness. Not that I'm not already doing it. Omg. But what if it should increase in the coming year? I'm already starting to feel my heart gravitating away from me again and it must absolutely not happen again this year, seeing as I'm pretty much screwed even if I have both my head and my heart, let alone if I don't have one of those two. Bloody hell. And at the rate I'm going, I'm as likely to lose the former as the latter.

I said I wasn't going to be afraid of being lonely anymore. I thought I had it all sussed out but........ wtf! Wtf? Seriously!

...maybe I ought to go to sleep. I must be slightly out of my mind at this hour.

This is madness. How do people even survive the first year of university?

-Nix

PS. I've learnt that a new year changes nothing except your own determination to change things.

I don't know when my mine will run out.

Just because I'm procrastinating from the whole uni thing. XD

♥ basics
» Name? Nikki
» Height? 162cm
» Age? 18
» Tomboy or Girly girl? Girly-girl LOL.

♥ do you...?
» Like metrosexual boys? No. I prefer more boyish types lol.
» Like accessories? Yes!
» Like high heels? I would like to like them, but they hurt too much and I'm too freaked about tripping/spraining an ankle XD
» Like matchy matchy, or mix and match? Used to be more matchy-matchy, but I think now I don't care as much and just mix and match. It's more fun :3
» Spend a lot of money on beauty products in general? Well, not my own money lol...
» Shop online for clothes? No, too risky! ><
» Steal style ideas from friends? I wouldn't call it stealing. I just like to look XD

♥ favourite...?
» Article of clothing in your closet? Probably the new skinny/straight jeans I got in HK lol.
» Makeup line? For mascara, CoverGirl. For everything else.... generally whatever.
» Skincare line? Avene is the best I've used so far =)
» Perfume? Anna Sui by Anna Sui.
» Colors to wear? Yellow! Black! Gray! Blue! White?

♥ what stuff...?
» What is a trend you dislike the most? Lolol, I don't really have a thing against any trends XD
» What is your fashion philosophy? The most important thing is whether or not you like it X3
» What kind of shoes do you like? Comfortable converse and flats.
» What is your biggest fashion problem? The problem tummy LOL. And I suppose I'm not on good terms with my hips or legs either.
» What old trends do you think should come back? I dunno, I'd wear it even if it was out anyway XD
» What one piece are you dying to add to your wardrobe? Same as Angela. Some nicer clubbing tops, or a comfortable party dress.

♥ misc
» How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Like.... at least an hour? XD
» Ever been to a fashion show? No :(
» Would you ever go out in public without makeup? I've done that before lolol. Lots of times.
» Who do you think has great style? The Non-no models!
» If you had a fashion budget of 1 million dollars, where would you shop, and why? I would probably like to go to Japan for the cute accessories and Australia, since they have better clothes there which are still wearable in NZ. Not sure about the fashion in other countries, so... I will buy lots of shoes though XD.
» Is there anything you absolutely CAN'T wear? Skintight tops. And really short shorts/skirts lol.
» If you had to pick one designer to wear for the rest of your life, who would it be, and why? Er.... I'm not familiar with many designers. And I wouldn't know if it's a brand or a designer so. Yeah. XDD

Dear All,

Finally accepted admission into a BA/LLB! I'm not quite sure if I'm happy about it. At least that is one less thing to worry about. However, now I am tearing my hair out because I am so utterly lost with the courses and programmes and timetables and what is on in this semester and what is on the next.... omg. I have no idea how to do. How do people sort out these things in such a short amount of time? How are we supposed to know what to do? My goodness.

... okay. I just found out that we should only choose 2-3 BA subjects to concentrate on if we're doing a conjoint. Which means a maximum of about 2 papers per subject if we're doing three BA subs, or 3 if we're doing 2 BA subs.

Hm.

Read My Girl again last night. I'm not entirely sure if it's a good book, but it never fails to make me tear up and I cried last night when I read it - like, really cried. It was a good outlet I suppose. Gah. I really want to see the movie now XD. I don't know what is so unusually touching about it, but....

I wonder what it would feel like to....

.... but wouldn't it be horrible?

Hm.

Things that happened today:

♥ Driving lesson.
Nearly killed two cars.
Got called a motherfucker. Lolz.
Still can't do corners and am stuck doing semi-circles.
Am angry at self but should not be.
Am now extremely tired.

♥ Job-hunt.
Got ditched by Ian. So went job-hunting by self.
Handed in a few CVs and got a few application forms, none of which seem very promising.
Am convinced that I did my best so it's A-okay.

♥ NCEA Results.
Did better/worse than expected.
Am just glad I passed!
Now do not know how to tell family that self wants to do a BA and not freaking Law.
Am also freaking out about the fact that should make a decision soon.
Am angry about being forced to make such an important choice in so short a time.

That is all.

-Nix